Frustrations and Staying Focused
This month is full of ‘dammit’s.
My Etsy shop traffic is nil. Apparently foo foo’s for baby are not on anyone’s shopping list. Dammit. I’m hoping at least to be able to barter on a homesteading forum that I frequent. With two weeks of bad weather, the market has been shut down and no chance of selling there. This week I’ll be a no-show because we are obligated to husband’s office party.
I realized that I’ve been using euphemisms like ‘simple holidays’ for hard facts (read: we are broke). Dammit. It’s hard to know you can’t give your kid everything, and as a parent, that’s exactly what you want to do. Despite our mantra of ‘keep it simple’, it is a mental and emotional challenge to know that even if you wanted everything, you still couldn’t do it.
The hard freeze we had a while back killed the remaining herbs in the garden. Thank goodness I had not planted the broccoli seeds yet- they will wait a bit longer for the spring. Dammit.
I’m not in this to win any awards for self sufficiency or creativity. I’m not trying to impress anyone with my skills (or lack thereof) and I suppose when reality gets a little harsh, it tends to muddle your train of thought. And it’s hard when you have to think simple because you’ve GOT to, not because you want to. The challenge of frugality isn’t so fun when it ceases to be a game but necessary. At least I’ve had some practice, right?
It’s in hard and harder times that it is difficult to stay focused on what your goal is. Things seem to pull you in a million different directions, and none of them are what you really want in your heart.